COMING OUT OF THE DARK
JANUARY 27, 2022
“Who can hide in secret places so that I cannot see them?” declares the LORD. “Do not I fill heaven and earth?” declares the LORD.”
I tried it. Hiding, that is. Not in the physical sense of hiding but in the spiritual sense. While admitting 2021 was not the best year for my spiritual walk, something happened. God found me. He had my number and wasn’t going to leave me where I was. He knew that I knew better and could do better! But here’s the truth, I fell short of His Will in 2021. I laid down, put down my pen, and slumbered 2021 away.
I felt like the Holy Spirit was saying throughout the year, “How long will you lie there, you sluggard?
When will you get up from your sleep?” Proverbs 6:9 NIV
You see, I had gotten comfortable where I was. I was okay with watching Netflix and doing the bare minimum. Still working from home, it became easier for my motivation to decline and my passion to subside. No longer writing, not feeling inspired, I was at a standstill in life. The thing is, God is still faithful even when we opt out. And when we opt back in, He’s still at the same place we left Him. Waiting on us.
2 Peter 3:9 NIV, “The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”
I knew He wouldn’t leave me there for too much longer, so my prayer became, “Be gentle with me Lord, as you guide me back to You.” I knew personally, I wasn’t where I used to be or even wanted to be but didn’t know how to move. So in addition, to my “gentle” prayer, the other prayer that I mustered was, “Help me, Lord.”
Then one day, my help came. After my routine annual exams, the doctor called me and wanted me to come back for additional tests. “Is everything ok?” “Should I be worried?” I asked. “When can you come back in?” She asked. Now I was worried. Now I was awake. A health concern can change you quickly.
Now I began to get out more than a “help me” prayer. I reached out to those that I knew would also pray for me. I began reading my bible again and quoting scripture. I started attending service again instead of watching it online. I had to repent and change.
“And do this, understanding the present time: The hour has already come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed.” Romans 13:11 NIV
I went back and the additional tests were ran. Everything turned out fine but I learned a very important lesson. The time is now.
“Let us search out and examine our ways, and turn back to the LORD;” Lamentations 3: 40 NKJV
“Heavenly Father, thank you. You did not hide yourself from me. Thank you for helping me to find my way back to You. Continue to help me grow in You and in Your Word. My desire is to do Your will for my life in 2022. I will not slumber. I have awakened and I thank you for your gentle, loving nudge. You are my present help in the time of need and I will not forget it. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”